Prelims are here

Today my school's prelims have begun. Gasp!.. well so far the english paper wasn't tough. just abit tricky. nevertheless, it has to be tricky to be an examination paper. Well, tommorow is malay and there after would be normal school days... GASP again! Friday is teachers day and the following week is holiday... triple gasp! And also my mindchamp graduation.... gaspyee gaspy gaspy gasps!

So fast so early! And i heard n levels starts next week. Ah, yes, time do fly so very quickly. well, time to catch up with my studies... ciao.

Prelims!

yeh, prelims begins next week. woa, it's sure a scream. literally. heh. well, it's been 6 days since i posted. nothing much has happened, really, more or less just mad stress and crazy study. Stealing time occasionally to play a game or two of dawn of war.... damned alvin made me addicted :P. well, mindchamps has 2 lessons left. 2 wks till grad day. and i just did the mindchamp test yesterday! omg, pass? fail? lol. let's just think of pass. we'll think of fail if it comes.

so were going to have like a chalet bbq party at east coast after the o's. woah, over night sleep! wee... i can't wait.. it's sure to be the highlight of the month lol. if mum hasn't booked a flight to britain without telling me >.>. she has an annoying tendency to do that and leave me in a day or two short notice of the flight. it'ss extremely irritating especially if i already have plans. oh well, it normally blows over after i'm on that plane. heh.

I'm not sure am i ready to take the prelims or the o's? maybe, i dunno. there is still so many questions unanswered many questions unexposed, perhaps feelings like these are normal before a major exam. ah, like reef said, muggs! heh.(only knew what muggs mean after alvin explained to me >.>)..heh.

O level english Orals...gg

Phew...that was the most lemme think... nervous day of my life. Until now i am quite edgy. I've practised with my english tutor, and she says i'm of distinction grade. I practised with my english teacher and she says i am of distinction grade. So am i really of distinction grade? gggg...*bites fingernails...*.. But i dunno. seriously. I asked my english teacher to ask for me how i did because i am like, the last oe. The examiners would probably remember me best. They were two indians and the other don't really look indian. more or less, maly-pakistani.

The paper when reading was about tourists. The picture was of 4 caucaseans in the center. They were infront of a group of malay kompang group. Which was in the back ground of a building that look like somewhere in the CBD. wah that was quite... interesting. The discussion was about talent. in particular, it was, "Have you ever performed on stage?" "If you would go on stage to perform would you?" "Do you think culture & tradition is important?" :X..yah. it was quite okay. I could charm them.

But i dunno if i cut it for a distinction grade. lol. I'm waiting for my english teacher, who is the HOD for english to tell me how i did. Cos i was last i'm hoping they remembered me best. :X.

Grad nites?

Graduation day is coming. For both mindchamps and school. Gosh.. it's one of the things i'm looking forward to. Except for mindchamps. I want mindchamps to go on. It's like we've known each other for so long. I hope after the chalet thing, it won't be a one off thing, everyone should still keeps in touch. The "fantastic four" should like go down to east coast or something every month to keep links :)...and talk cock on the phone..haha. I dunno, that's just my IMHO.

School grad night is something i'm waiting for all my life. Well, at least for secondary school. It signifies more than just finishing my time in primary-secondary education,it signifies that I DO NOT HAVE TO ENTER THE SCHOOl AGAIN!!!111!!. haha. Well, that's life.

I've reflected on how i've affected so many lives in secondary school. All of them i change for the better. Like yesterday, i helped a friend in his oral examinations. Now he's quite good. From how he previously was. I've changed so many of my fellow junior ncc members. They all still love me. After so long i have left ncc, they still say hi and talk about their problems and issues with me. It makes me feel proud at how i have made these people a better person.

Ah, but it's all going to be over soon. Do i regret coming to TPSS? Maybe. But i definately have good memories. Definately better than primary school. Now, a new door open at the end of the year. Where will it be ITE? JC? POLY? Hpefully i get my choise of ngee ann poly or sngapore poly. If need be, republic. But who cares, at least i'll get the freedom i want. I need. I crave for.

With that instead of saying good bye before i go eat and do my usual stuff, i'll give you this video to watch. Enjoy :P

Ah, a new day...

Sigh, after yesterday i still feel abit crap, but i think, i should not dwell on this. What's past is the past, lessons can be learnt from the past, but what's past is past. We should not dwell on the past. What has happened has happened. I have gathered the pieces and have moved in my life but it appears he hasn't. Since it appears he doesn't want to be my friend anymore, so i don't think it's worth my time talking about it. In fact my life has returned to normal half the day. The fact that makes it easier is that we have never seen in other for quite some time.

IT made me realise how many better friends i have and how mature i have become. What i did in my childhood days are what i did then. stupid stuff and bad memories...People change. No one stays the same forever. I think this will be the last time i am going to talk about this issue in my life.

Well, because of this, i think i'll strike out the teacher's day reunion thing i was thinking off. Not worth my time or money. Study all the way! Time waits for no man.

Yes reef :P. boy do i blog alot XD. only place i can talk bout my life in peace. Eventhough no one bothers to read or listen :p. lol. In other news, i dunno if were going to see the fireworks this saturday, but we'll see. If alvin goes, i'll go and so will reef....yes..too bad jasmin :P.

Wee~ mindchamps tommorow.... I can't wait for another day of fantastic wonder and excitement....well... more of the 4 of us that i have grown close to.

Dammit.....drama of my life..

It's been 6-7 years since i meet my so called "best friend". Yes everyone had some deep dark secret in their childhood they try to burn away and leave it aside. Well, i managed to do that. I packed up my life in primary school and started anew. Then here comes a long time best friend whom i trusted...TRUSTED suddenly open up the box that he has put a lid on for years. Primary school grudges indeed.

I don't know what is his intentions but i think it's evil. He says i ruined his life, but i think he knows very well he's trying to ruin mine. With o levels so close, i can almost taste it, he wants to break me down. Well, i did.... for a day. Last night i cried myself like a wounded animal, to sleep. It was no funny matter it was really downright depressing. I had always thought we were childhood friends...for better or for worst. I thought that those problems were mildly childhood problems. But i guess what seems to be may not be.

I feel like i'm in a badly written korean drama. now he wants me to stand by the phone and wait for him to call. Like fuck i will. I rather he leave a messege via sms or on an answering machine. I refuse to hear his voice and i guess vice versa for him. I have nothing left to say to him. He does not deserve to be on my friendster list and neither on my msn contact list. I blocked both. All he needs to do is tell me when and i will not see him again for the rest of my life.

He managed to take a day of my study time, but hopefully that's it. I've seeked help with closer friends, whom i trusted more and they have comforted me about this little backlash in my life. It's something i have to deal with. The thing is, all the childhood issues he brought up, i can barely remember any of it. That's what make me feel all crap. But i guess that's life eh? Anyway, i guess it's not everyone that suffers such shit before a massive exam.

Now i've turned that depression and anxiety into downright anger. If that is his main revenge scheme to destroy me, fine. IT will never work. I will push myself to crush this damned obstacle. IT will be just a minor irritant in life.

Well, if it so one day that he comes to look for a job and i'm on the chair infront of him, i won't have anything to say to him except for 3 words. "Just Get Out!", now i understand the dream i had many many years ago. Where i dreamt i was behind my mum's desk and someone familiar is infront of me looking for a job. I've been thinking who it could have possibly been, but now i think i know.

With that, here starts a new day, i'm going to try and be happy and for get all of the nonsense that occured the night before. It's all just retarded.

Ahh... A Load Off my shoulders!

Finally after so long of slugging to finish my Food and nutrition assignment, it's over! Yay! It's finally done and over with. I also finish my FNN essays.. all 7 of erm. Woah you have no idea how the weight taken away feels. It's so awesome. woot.

Well, other than that, It feels real good to finally know that you are understanding stuff.. Wewt.. i finally understood the one chemistry chapter i had problem with since secondary 3. The dumb chapter with electrons, protons and neutrons. Finally conquering that chapter makes me feel good.

Ah, question. Is eg0 a good thing or bad thing? Ego maybe good in a way, but also bad in a way. Ego might force you to continue pushing yourself on. Competing with others. It is ego that does that. IT empowers you for competition. However, when ego goes overboard, it spills out into just being plain arrogant. See, there is a clear definition between the two. What people say is that first impressions count. But i would say, it's not just first impressions, it's the first way you act for the first time that changes impressions.

For example, if you have made a new friend, and have always known him for being a fun person. Then suddenly, after like 5 days upon meeting him, he starts being pissy to someone because of a silly problem. Then you start to think in your mind...hmm...this guy is volatile... so you tend to avoid him. That is most of the case. You always tend to think you know someone untill they expose their true sides.

Somene that is serious is not necessarily workaholic. That's the truth :). I'm no workaholic, but damned it, i study alot. lol. well, i'm sorta forced to, with prelims and o's coming so close. I flunked real badly for my mid year. I had like 6 f9's and 1 b3. Tell me how the fuck am i to get to poly with fucking grades like that. It's horrible. Working hard is key and with god given hope, i'll get the dream A's i want, like in my N's where i got 4 points....woots.

pressure is on to get similar results for O's. Is it possible? Who says it isn't....Well i say i can. If i say it...it's the most powerful thing to your own self. When you say you can achieve something, then you're prolly going to achieve it. If you doubt it,then you're doubting yourself.